Write a message to whoever & just leave it anonymous. In no particular order, Rant or praise, whatever you feel like, rinse and repeat if you want.
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1. I am never happier than when I am with you. We've been friends our entire lives and I love you more than anything. Sometimes I feel like you love me too that way too... but mostly I'm just scared of knowing for sure that you don't. Please don't leave me.

2. I don't have to accept that you are a complete and total bitch slut pothead drunk and shouldn't be expected to attend all of your plays, varying in suckage levels, while you go through life with your head up your ass preparing for a future that you will never excel in because you can't sing, dance, or act worth a shit, just because you're family.

3. I can't tell you, and I never will tell you, how glad I am that I didn't follow you where ever you went, because I'd be right back where I started, and secretly hate you even more than I do now. And I don't want to hate you, I never wanted to hate you... I can usually talk myself out of hating you, actually. I hope I won't ..dislike you so strongly sometime in the future. It's so much harder to dislike you strongly when you make me laugh! You were a big part of my life for a while, and I miss that.. I just wish that I could tell whether you really do as well. I wish I could tell whether you really mean anything you do and say ever.

4. Stop it. Stop it stop it stop it stop it. You are probably the most beautiful person I've ever known. I would kill to have your body, and sometimes I'd like to kill you for complaining about it all the time.

5. What can I say... you took my place, swiftly and easily. You made me question my worth and my position in life. Not that any of it was your fault, seriously, I know that. I blamed you, but I always knew. I'm sorry. I'm glad we're friends now..

6. I love you so much and I want nothing but the best for you. For you to succeed in whatever you choose, in whatever you want, in whatever you dream. For you to be happy. And I know you can, and you will, and I'll watch and cheer and love and say "I knew her when.." and all that crap. Marry Me?

7. We have so much in common, so why is it so hard to be friends? I think it's because a part of me will always wish we were more than friends... and I've never known how that affects you.

8. Your boyfriend is ruining our friendship. And I hate to see you put so much time, energy, and emotion into something I just don't see having a future. I miss you.

9. I'm sorry I let so much CRAP come between us. When I get back, we'll make up the missing years and everything shall be grand.

10. ..Do Me.


Unlike Wintana, I will NOT be telling you which one is about you, though I will leave the comments open in case you want to guess anyway.
hint: #10 was for Rupert Grint. we're tight.

Think of 15 of your favorite movies, go to IMDb and find quotes for each. Post the quotes. When someone guesses the movie, add the moviename and the person who got it right. (No fair using IMDb to find the answer!!)

1. "At first the Germans didn't shoot at him. I think they couldn't quite believe what they were seeing. But that wasn't the really astounding thing. The astounding thing was that, after he hooked up with I Company, he came back." [Tobey: Band of Brothers]

2. "This day does not belong to one man but to all. Let us together rebuild this world that we may share in the days of peace." [David: Return of the King]

3. "What was I supposed to do - call him for cheating better than me, in front of the others?"

4. "I'm 36 years old, I love my family, I love baseball and I'm about to become a farmer. But until I heard the voice, I'd never done a crazy thing in my whole life." [David: Field of Dreams]

5. "I can't feel my legs, I HAVE NO LEGS!"

6. "This is Sammy Davis Jr. Jr... She is Grandfather's Seeing Eye bitch. Father purchased her for him not because he believes Grandfather is blind, but because a Seeing Eye bitch is also a good thing for people who pine for the opposite of loneliness. In truth, Father did not purchase her at all, but merely retrieved her from the home for forgetful dogs. Because of this, she is not a real Seeing Eye bitch, and is also mentally deranged."

7. "Chi-cken... Good."

8. ""Remember us." As simple an order as a king can give. For he did not wish tribute, nor song, or monuments or poems of war and valor. His wish was simple. "Remember us," he said to me. That was his hope, should any free soul come across that place, in all the countless centuries yet to be." [Tobey: 300]

9. "I'm a full-time dad. I'm a working parent. I'm a mother and a father. I'm a guy who reads parenting books and cookbooks before I go to sleep. I spend my weekends buying tutus. I'm learning to sew. I'm Mr. Napkin Head!"

10. "Let me put this in perspective for you. The first Comte de Reynaud expelled all the radical Huguenots in this village. You and your truffles present a far lesser challenge." [Lexie: Chocolat]

11. "I'm just like every modern woman trying to have it all. A loving husband, a family. I only wish I had more time to see out the dark forces and join their hellish crusade."

12. "Now, you are family. Okay. All my life, I had a lump at the back of my neck, right here. Always, a lump. Then I started menopause and the lump got bigger from the "hormonees." It started to grow. So I go to the doctor, and he did the bio... the b... the... the bios... the... b... the "bobopsy." Inside the lump he found teeth and a spinal cord. Yes. Inside the lump was my twin." [Lexie: My Big Fat Greek Wedding]

13. "Littering and... littering and... littering and smokin' the reefer." [Tobey: Super Troopers]

14. "Sigh no more, ladies, sigh no more. Men were deceivers ever. One foot in sea and one on shore, to one thing constant never. Then sigh not so but let them go and be you blithe and bonny, converting all your sounds of woe into hey nonny nonny." [Lexie, finally: Much Ado About Nothing]

15. "Invention, my dear friends, is 93% perspiration, 6% electricity, 4% evaporation, and 2% butterscotch ripple." [Lexie: Willy Wonka, 1971]


...harder than i thought... these are definitely not my top 15 movies (i don't think...) i just couldn't think of any others tonight. enjoi! ^_^

BAM

or just what i'm going to give you. eat it.

and scene.

project for Uni: 3 shots, 30 seconds. bleh. enjoi!

the ending of Nanny McFee made me cry. not just because the music is enchanting, or the snowy winter-wounderous setting, or the feeling of a truly happily ever after.. or the best lines of all time: "how's your reading coming along?" "it's much better.. but i still haven't gotten to the end of that story." "no need. you are that story." no no. i cry because of all that, combined with how fucking gorgeous Emma Thompon is. so fucking beautiful it hurts. so.. ridiculously beautiful. god i love her.

makes me.... want

...that all works.


update about my fabulous Alpine Vacation to come later, right now, i'm a little busy
TURNING 21
today, so, i'll get back to you.

BAM

well. this has been an interesting night -- it's always worthwhile to see your boss get shit faced and hump things... always. found out that most of the girls at PC World are just plain pretty slutty... and aaalll the guys are huge horn-balls. good times. oh, and as usual, as some of you would know, i got groped and kissed by a wasted stranger. thus continues the tradition. i did get all dressed up though, and the bar tender said that i was "very nice" and "very beautiful" and etc etc and hit on me all night., and eventually asked me out! which would have all been pretty awesome, had he not been 30 something and more slightly beer-gutted than i'd prefer... sad. but he was nice to talk to/flirt with just for funs.. and then i kind of ran away without giving him my number, which i said i would. and though i probably would never have actually talked to him if he called, i still feel a bit of a wanker. so! that was fun. ..i guess. as far as these things go. hah.


that xmas festival on Princes St. was AMAZING. it was beyond freezing, but it was seriously the coolest thing ever. so many booths, activities, food mmm food... made you forget it was actually ON the busiest street in Edinburgh. amazing.

and i was going to put these behind a cut, but they do not want to cooperate, so here are two videos!


ice rink! which we did not go on, lol.


and this is Trish, Nicola, and I actually on the big wheel. you can hear Nicola's threats to the carnies if they were to stop the wheel at the top. --she was none too keen to be on that thing, but we were very proud of her! the view of everything was so great up there, though it was cold as ICE, for real.






alrighty! time to put up my christmas lights! aka, my christmas present from Leanne. yay!

10 days to european xmas adventures..
BAMF. XD

mad. mad mad mad. so very mad. and i was happy yesterday. like, really happy. for no reason. good day at work, compliments, guitar hero, talked to friends who i haven't talked to in a while (aka, Wintana), won Scene-It, had a long talk with my mother... it was all good.

i'd like to tell stories about good things happening, but i'm so mad, i'm just gonna do bulletpoints:
- work is going very well, they play harry potter 3 all day long, and i can play guitar hero if i get bored.
- store xmas party this saturday, we'll see what happens with the nice guy from work.
- i'm discovering the joys of reading something other than HP again, and Steven King still rocks.
- sent out my xmas goodies.
- Trish moved out, but it's ok because:
- 14 DAYS TILL XMAS ADVENTURES int the Alps!
- going to see Golden Compass tonight. i really want to see Shrooms, haha.
- going to the downtown xmas festival this friday. that means pictures! yay.
- finally filmed my first movie yesterday, about laundry, and will be editing it today. my group is lame, therefore, i have taken control an they can suck my balls. i'm not making a shitty movie this year because of them.
- still. no. herb. 2.5 months. it is sad.

so, that's that. and i'm mad because of my cousin. my stupid stupid flakey skanky stupid cousin. since the summer, she's been saying that she's going to come visit me for a while over xmas break. therefore, i have been adequately excited. as time has gone by, however, and she has not bought her tickets, my excitement has wained. and yet, she's constantly reassuring me that she's still going to come, and blaming the delay on her father. this..could or could not be true. i have subsequently emailed her father and have gotten no response from my Once And Favorite Uncle. if it really is his fault that she hasn't bought the tickets yet, i will unleash hell apon him. i will not hold back. but at this point, not knowing for sure, it really just seems like she never really intended to come, and if she had, then it seems like she just hasn't tried hard enough. which i would totally believe.

 *SIGH*

i am mad.  mad mad mad.

BAM.

i finally gave in and watched an episode of Weeds last night.  ...and then i gave in and proceeded to watch the whole first season of Weeds last night. hoylshitamazing. go. go and watch it now. it has pushed me over the edge of being an advocate for legalization. goddamn. make the world happier, that's what it'd do.


i work for Sarumon. ...for realz.  though unlike Christopher Lee, when this man opens his mouth, i do not want to strangle him with his own beard. i am meeting so many people's dopplegangers here, it's very odd. there's a Mike Kawi, a TJ, a Ryan Green, a Paul Clifford, and now there's a Sarumon.

Video Production has finally started up! woot! aaaanndd.... i know more than anyone in my class thusfar. huh. but, there is some light at the end of the tunnel. my adviser has told me that if my end of semester grades are fine, which they will be, then there will be no problem with me just taking some level 3 and 4 classes to finish out the year! which is amazing, and sounds like it actually may be challenging. god that'd be nice.

tomorrow is Thanksgiving and for the second year in a row, i'll be in a country that doesn't give a shit. though this time, i'll be able to talk to my family and i'm actually going to make turkey (cutlets), potatoes, corn, squash, cranberries.. oh ya, i'm doing it up. it's just awesome that i happen to also have nothing to do tomorrow. ..but cook. yay! makes me happy. also makes me still want to have a huge thanksgiving one year, hopefully in the not-to-distant future, where it's all us friends getting together and making our own family for the day and just having an amazing, warm-n-cuddly time. *sigh*


...i want a hooka.
......get on that.

BAM

review time! (well, more of a step-by-step) and yes, i am going to give away the endings, so don't read if you really want to put yourself through the pain personally.




on a more pleasant note, i figured out how to run Stepmania on a Mac, so now i'm getting my parents to send me my dance pad. ha. only worked 4 hours today, but i stood in the same spot literally the whole time. oooh my feet. i need better shoes and better pants.

i also haven't bought food in quite a while -- i'm doing that trying-to-save-money thing -- and it's a gong well so far. i'm getting down to rice.. but hey, the asianeses do it, right? lol.  still not going to classes..... is still working for me. heh. we shall indeed see. oh, and if anyone wanted a follow-up on my thumb injury, it's quite healed and forming a nice souvenir scar.

Thanksgiving is on Thursday, so i'm going to have a family skype session when everyone's together.. *sigh* good times. and i'll be going to by myself some turkey and cranberries tomorrow. what the hell, i'm making of it what i can. ^_^

BAM

i did that wonderful childhood thing of breaking off the tip of a pencil in my finger.  ...wow. on the same finger where there's a tip left from the last incident in 3rd grade. interesting.

oop. and now there's blood on the keyboard.


that's dedication.
appreciate.


BAM


[oh yes, second day at work blah blah blah, more later blah blah blah]

so. busy week... well. at least compared to my close-to-non-existence that's been going on lately. i finally got my bank account figured out and i actually went shopping and didn't buy anything but fruit, veg, and cheese. hello healthy. i started work today, that is, training. at least i was getting paid to watch hours of early 90s safety in the workplace 'how to lift heavy loads' videos. the tills are touchscreen. this excites me. i also had to tell them today that i wouldn't be there for christmas, when they had spent most of the day explaining how busy it gets on boxing day. that felt good. so after 8hrs of torture, and having missed FOUR classes, i returned to my little room and dissected this beauty!:

Dragonfruit. i had to get it. i mean, look at it!! nature actually makes that color. and that is pretty freakin cool. inside!:

gray fruit. whoever heard of such a thing.  ya... this is probably the coolest fruit i've ever come across. the flavor was good, but it has the texture of kiwi, and i don't get along with kiwi, so i gave this wonderous goody to Trish darling.

i painted the other day as well. some of my sanity has returned.


encouragement for visitations:

SOME THIEF HAS THIEVED MY SPOOOOON.


[the good times are killing me]

dear Michael Gambon,

are you ever not going to suck?

kisses!